What we’re like to be in pain

It is so easy to feel bad for yourself
To wallow in self pity about everything that is wrong in your life and blame external factors for it

To feel as though an injustice was placed on you,
and you yourself is singled out to be worse off than everyone else.

It is so easy isn’t it ?
To listen to sad music and relate to the heartbreaking vocals
To sit outside watching rainfall while you light one up
To ponder at the same sky we all do and ask, “why me?”

When we’re at our worst, nothing feels better but hurting ourselves further
Testing our pain threshold more
Gauge how much more we can take.
Marinate in pain and sorrow.
Feeling sorry for ourselves.

It’s so wrong but feels so right to hurt

If I’m already in pain, what’s a little more ?

9.17.2017 I’m Back

I’m starting to think my blog needs an overhaul and tons and tons of TLC… truth be told I’m not a great designer so this might be a long journey.

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These days, I’m treating myself better now that I’m 2 months post-breakup and soaring new sights with these unclipped wings.

I recently finished out the Young Elites trilogy by Marie Lu., which motivated me to really want to start writing again. I want to take a moment and praise Lu’s character arc for Adelina. It was so raw and powerful to see the transformation. Without spilling too much, Adelina is the human we all are. There are times we’re filled with rage and no sense of logic can block the warpath were on, and at other times we put on the brave face and wear strength on our sleeves even though we’re dying a miserable death on the inside. Adelina portrays the emotions we’ve all had growing up, especially when faced with sudden betrayal. I love that she is someone you hate and love. She is a hero and a villain in her own right. It’s a beautiful piece and a quick read because you’ll find it hard to put down! (For those who’ve already read this series, I’ve started on Warcross and so far it’s out of this world ~literally~) 

So from there, I want to start treating my blog as a second job and go after my dreams: create stories and characters that are multiple facades of who I am. Then share it here to inspire others or just provide those with a curiosity for my narratives a decent read.

It took me months after scoring my double pirouette to be steady with a triple and just like ballet training, if I keep writing every day, I’ll get better. I’ll feel better. And I’ll have the confidence to share my short stories.

First one up? Check out the link to Unclipped Wings. It’s a short story I wrote in 2013. Stay tuned bloggers! 🙂