Movies & Shows to Stream for Every Quarantine ‘MOOD’

I’m hit with serious show hole. If you didn’t watch the TV spot on Show Holes from Amazon a while back, here’s the link to describe the feeling:

So now that I’ve exhausted through every star studded big name show and movie on demand, what’s there left?? I created this list to help me recall the best of the best for each mood I’m having while learning to adapt to only 800 square feet of living for the next unforeseeable future.

  1. The I need Chicken Soup for the Soul Mood: Gilmore Girls on Netflix, the perfect blend of comfort and feel good warmth.
  2. The I miss my siblings and need a little bit of magic in my life Mood: Onward on Disney+, Kleenex is a commodity so use sparingly.
  3. The I need something suspenseful and based on a book mood: Little Fires Everywhere on Hulu, who’s side will you be you on??
  4. The I miss brunch on the weekend with my girls and legit any real type of social networking mood: Dollface on Hulu (break open a bottle of Cava and you’ll really feel like you’re back in your
  5. The it’s Saturday Morning, and I’m still having cereal for breakfast at age 29 mood: Recess on Disney+. I still can’t believe I can stream this whenever I want!! Oh how I miss swinging on monkey bars and playing hopscotch.
  6. The I need something bright and funny to lighten up the mood in my single bedroom shelter mood: Marvelous Mrs. Maisel on Amazon Prime. I need a Midge in my life- to be my friend, mom, lover, style icon. She’s perfect, perfect…PERFECT.
  7. The I feel like garbage so give me some junk digestible TV mood: Real Housewives of Beverly Hills on Hulu, because other people’s million dollar problems are so much more entertaining than the fact that I haven’t worn jeans in 3 weeks.
  8. The I need to go on an adventure with my friends but can’t mood: Hunter x Hunter on Netflix and Hulu(entire series on Crunchyroll). This is by far one of the best bingeable animes for best buds all having their own goals but achieving them together.
  9. The I have wine and found some good cheeses at the store for once mood: Ratatouille on Disney+, easily one of the better culinary movies of our time and it’s family friendly!
  10. The I need to be healthier and stop ordering takeout mood: Jamie Oliver’s Quick & Easy Food series on Hulu. He breaks down how to make bombassery food with simple and quick 5 ingredients. I’ve been cooking for so long and still find surprising tricks from these snack size episodes. You’ll want to bookmark this one not just to cook healthy foods for yourself during WFH but remember them to host dinners and wow guests!

Honorable Mentions:

  1. Sex & the City on Amazon Prime: when you miss GNO
  2. Mulan: when you need a story about warriors & bravery
  3. Modern Family: When you miss family and need a laugh to remember all their quirks
  4. Chef’s Table: The closest thing we’ll get to fine dining for a while
  5. The Matrix Trilogy: Matrix 4 is on its way, and um hello? anything with Keanu is a win.

 

Where our arguments lead

We were like two ships in the night with a vast ocean separating us,

We’ll be in same sea, on the same journey but never meeting in between

a flicker in the light from your deck is all I can see,

The waves roll on swaying across the dark unknown

spilling fear and mystery,

I look to your light,

waiting and praying the flicker grows warmer and stronger, closer to mine

Alas, the storm rages on dividing our two ships with no means to an end.

Both lost,

both afraid,

and both stuck away from each other with no way back.

 

Cabin Fever? Here’s my daily routine and list of things to do!

I’m doing my part by flattening the curve and only going out for a walk to taste fresh air or pick up necessary groceries for the week.

But cabin fever is a legit problem.

Here’s how my day has been spent (literally everyday to the point where the weekends mesh and feel like weekdays).

7:13AM Wake up, scroll through my phone and check the latest on COVID-19 through twitter and various news outlets.

7:30AM Get around to peeling myself off the bed, grab a sweater to pull over and head for the kitchen to mainline that caffeine.

7:32AM This is the North Star of every morning. Beautiful brew stirred to almond milky goodness sitting on my breakfast bar while I continue to peruse through what I’ve missed while I slept.

8:30AM YOGA

9:30AM Prep my faux OOTD (cute top, yoga pants on the bottom) and do something different to my hair that makes it look combed before I’m hit with any video conferences.

10AM Switch from personal to work laptop and drill through emails like mad. Efficiency is key for me before I have my first meal at lunch. After I have food, my crank rate depreciates by half.

11AM Prep the kitchen for lunch, continue to focus on emails.

12PM Lunch time, usually coupled with a quick snack size TV content. Lately, we’ve been watching Jamie Oliver’s Quick & Easy.

1(ish) but really like 1:45PM, prep to hop back online.

5(ish) wind down and prep the kitchen for dinner

6PM Dinner with a show my partner and I take seriously because night time means drama, thriller, and all that good jazz to keep me hooked.

7PM Play a round of video games with my partner until we’re too stressed out from our competitive nature. He’ll switch the game to something more mind numbing, single player, and relaxing and I’ll head to the bedroom to grab the latest read.

8:30PM Call me a grandma at not even 30, but this is the second wave of that good good. This is when I reach for my laptop to write or shuffle through my shelf ( or possibly digital Kindle backlog) for a great new adventure through words. Currently, I’m reading Laws of Human Nature and Marie Lu’s Legend Series. Sometimes I’ll read 2 sentences and I’ll be out quicker than you can blink, other times, the escapism gets real and I’m clocking in until 1230AM through an entirely new universe.

I know the next few weeks are going to be daunting. I know it’s tough for those who are more directly affected by this than me, but if you’re hit with cabin fever, here’s a list of hobbies that would be a wonderful start to living your day and not feeling like you’ve wasted it because you’re stuck at home:

  1. Adult Coloring Book – once you’re finished, you can hang them up a wall or roll them up, tie it with a string and give it to a loved one. It’s the easiest and most painless way to share a hand crafted gift. (I know knot how to knit so this is my crafty avenue- haha)
    Pro tip: If you’re of age, a nice glass of wine is the perfect pairing
  2. Level Up Your Cooking & Baking Skills– I’ve linked you to my pinterest page. I grew up thinking I would never be the scrapbooking type, yet the digital version is so fun and easy! With so much time on our hands, this is the perfect homebody hobby to try different recipes and create a list of aces to wow your friends once this quarantine is over! Pro Tip: grocery stores may intimidate you lately with the lines, out of stock and barren produce section. But I’ve found if you go to an ethnic store they’ll likely have a lot more inventory than your local Ralphs or Whole Foods and it’ll cost you a lot less.
  3. Make (metaphorical) Lemonade- Remember that old adage, “If only I had more time?”, Well now you really do! Take this opportunity to chase your dream, start your own business, learn a new language. Paralyzing yourself tuning in (or out) with Netflix, Hulu, and all the other on demand streaming services isn’t helping your situation. You’ll just feel even less alive and excited about each day, especially once you’ve finished binging Gilmore Girls again for the 5th time.
  4. Indoor Escapism: Video games are the quickest way to jump into a different reality. Luckily, timing was on our side for once and Nintendo released Animal Crossing. A Sims type of game where you runaway and live on an island. If you’ve got a PS4, I recommend this silly third person shooter: Agents of Mayhem. It’s got the vibe of GTA, but with cartoony art style and form. Every character is a wonder and the missions are super chill but fun.
  5. Reading & Writing: I went on a hiatus and the traffic to my blog is as DOA as using the term ‘on fleek’ from 2 years back today. But I’ve really found the bonus time to write more, read more and imagine more. Reading is such a great tool to help motivate me to get creative and write beyond my usual styles. Definitely reach out if you want a list of recommendations, give me your vibe and I’ll post you your next great literary adventure.

 

 

 

With COVID-19, A New Wave of Racism

Date: July 22, 2010

Mr. Martinez, University of California Riverside Professor in Sociology 

He had said during one our very last lecture in class, “We are not all different races; we all belong to the human race.” The quote really touched me. I had never thought of it like that. With the lack of the right education from our childhood, we’re not taught that we’re all the same. We learn in history about World Wars and Civil Wars separating peoples and confining them to their races, but nothing teaches us about the takeaway. What was it all for? Every little fire started from xenophobia. Why haven’t we been properly educated to understand that despite the wars that have created racism, we are all part of the human race and if you truly trace back our roots, we’re just all from the same place

Date: March 26, 2020

A decade later, a world pandemic spreads from Wuhan, China where the Coronavirus outbreak started and it seems a new wave of  racism towards Asians have emerged. With research concluding that this was a result of natural evolution, it seems the rest of the world is looking to blame the Chinese, further exacerbated by Trump calling it the ‘Chinese Virus.’ Unfortunately, it resulted in not just scapegoating the Chinese, but other Asians alike: Japanese, Vietnamese, Koreans etc…

As the coronavirus upends American life, Chinese-Americans face a double threat. Not only are they grappling like everyone else with how to avoid the virus itself, they are also contending with growing racism in the form of verbal and physical attacks. Other Asian-Americans — with families from Korea, Vietnam, the Philippines, Myanmar and other places — are facing threats, too, lumped together with Chinese-Americans by a bigotry that does not know the difference.

In interviews over the past week, nearly two dozen Asian-Americans across the country said they were afraid — to go grocery shopping, to travel alone on subways or buses, to let their children go outside. Many described being yelled at in public — a sudden spasm of hate that is reminiscent of the kind faced by American Muslims, Arabs and South Asians in the United States after the terrorist attacks of Sept. 11, 2001.

But unlike in 2001, when President George W. Bush urged tolerance of American Muslims, this time President Trump is using language that Asian-Americans say is inciting racist attacks.

-NY Times

I woke up to this article and immediately started messaging my family, reminding them to not travel alone anywhere during this time. Reminding friends to tell their beloved to brace themselves for this new hate wave. I’ve noticed when I go out once every few days to pick up groceries, there’s a larger gap between myself and others waiting in line than other queues without anyone of Asian descent. I’m actually thankful nothing worse has happened to me or anyone else i know.

I’m realizing how very real and terrifying this disease has taken form from something that gives us daily hypochondria to fear that we can’t even walk outside alone or in the dark. It’s scared everyone else away from Asians even in the time when we all need to move away from racism and fight this disease for all human kind.

It seems we’ve forgotten:

that all men are created equal.

I’m deeply terrified for the younger kids who have to go back to school and face bullying. I’m painfully afraid of my parents who are much older now to defend themselves when they decide to take a stroll outside.
I’m disappointed that despite all the fake news we’re aware exists in the interwebs, there’s a stain and fingers pointed because it’s easier to have someone to blame than accept something else. Something the media hasn’t been broadcasting. Something media should educate people on but don’t.

The novel SARS-CoV-2 coronavirus that emerged in the city of Wuhan, China, last year and has since caused a large scale COVID-19 epidemic and spread to more than 70 other countries is the product of natural evolution, according to findings published today in the journal Nature Medicine.

-Science Daily

What Forgetting You is Like

Forgetting you is like rolling down the window driving on the coast and not smelling the musky salt water.
Forgetting you is like tapping on the table with my fingers and not hearing a sound,
it’s biting into an apple and not having a memorable sweetness explode on my tastebuds.

Forgetting you is like waking up and not seeing sunlight bleed through my curtains,
it’s touching cotton without feeling the soft warmth of a coat in an autumn night.

Forgetting you is forcing myself to forget the 5 senses. If I can smell, hear, taste, see and feel – you are there.

The way your scent is everywhere on my pillows and old jackets.
The way your old records are sitting on my shelf giving me a glimpse back into our old life when you’d take my hand and swing my body around to the tunes.
The way your silent breathing through the night calms me and helps me sleep.
The way your body felt in the morning when I climbed closer to steal your warmth.
The way your tongue tasted minty and aged after you’ve brushed your teeth from drinking whiskey all night.

Even when you aren’t here, all my memory stayed.

Forgetting you is like holding onto what’s familiar,
It’s expecting what was there to always be there.

My five senses will always hold you in memory, even when you aren’t here.

adult affection bed closeness
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What we’re like to be in pain

It is so easy to feel bad for yourself
To wallow in self pity about everything that is wrong in your life and blame external factors for it

To feel as though an injustice was placed on you,
and you yourself is singled out to be worse off than everyone else.

It is so easy isn’t it ?
To listen to sad music and relate to the heartbreaking vocals
To sit outside watching rainfall while you light one up
To ponder at the same sky we all do and ask, “why me?”

When we’re at our worst, nothing feels better but hurting ourselves further
Testing our pain threshold more
Gauge how much more we can take.
Marinate in pain and sorrow.
Feeling sorry for ourselves.

It’s so wrong but feels so right to hurt

If I’m already in pain, what’s a little more ?

Read More. Believe More – Here’s my 2019 list of greats I will read.

Is it so terribly wrong that I’m already starting my reading list for 2019 when I’m still behind on finishing the last two for this year?

I got so excited with the list I have that I’ve just been researching, researching until I fell into this rabbit hole of anecdotal discovery.

  1. The Lessons of History 
    • What are the possibilities of humanity? Where did it start and where does the potential go? Questions I believe we should all ponder as we look to past generations and hope for new.
  2. The Sun and Her Flowers – Rupi Kaur
    • I received this for Christmas and finished it before the clock struck twelve on the 26th. It’s a great follow up novel to Milk & Honey. If you love soft poetry colored with beautiful personification, grab it off the shelf and read it to your beloved.
  3. Laws of Human Nature
    • Robert Greene’s latest that I aim to finish right ater art of seduction
  4. The Art of Seduction
    • a classic Robert Greene providing historical figure’s tools and devices in realizing charm
  5. Sapiens: A Brief History of Humankind
    • If you haven’t heard about this book, you haven’t been in the literary world recently. Praised by Captain America himself, Chris Evans shared that we must all understand our roots and how it lead our people (all people) to where we are today. I haven’t finished this just yet but I do want to share, this is what our grade school teachers should have taught in history class.
  6. The Decaying Pillars by Steve Ruygrok
    • I know a published author! Proud to be a coworker of his, Steve Ruygrok dropped of this book for me to read before beta reading his next novel.
  7. Herstory: 50 Women and Girls who shook up the world
    • Women lead. Women breathe life. Women are just as important as the men we remember from history. So why aren’t they on a pedestal as much as the great men? Let’s honor the women who long ago have broken the glass ceiling before Sheryl Sandberg.
  8. East of Eden
    • This is a hefty read but who doesn’t love a John Steinbeck classic?
  9. #GirlBoss
    • Sophia Amoruso is a special kind of person. She breaks all the rules and rebels with every bone in her body. I idolize her intrinsic nature to lead, mix personal style with passion and drive to help other women strive for what they deem as success.
  10. The Golden Compass
    • This is a must purely because I received the collection (#11, #12 below as well) as a christmas gift more than 2 years ago now.
  11. The Subtle Knife
  12. The Amber SpyGlass
  13. An absent mind
    • alzheimer’s touches me deeply with it taken my grandfather not long ago. This story follows a man’s struggle with the disease and the effect to his family in the final days.
  14. Getting to Know Gen Z .pdf
    • I feel old when Gen Z is the major topic of discussion and no longer the “entitled” millennials. I will say after finishing this PDF earlier this month, it made me realize the affects my parents had in raising me with a “can do” attitude and how it lead my generation to come off as “entitled.” Gen Z is the safer generation learning from the failures of mine and reaching further than my cohorts did in fighting for their beliefs. Not just racial, gender, and sexual orientation equality but also a long winded battle for environmental conservation, social imprint in bringing people together and much more. They have a louder voice than we did and it makes me so happy, we’re all leaning in and learning from generations younger than ourselves.
  15. The Autobiography of Malcom X
    • this was a recommendation and I honestly haven’t researched much.
  16. Michelle Obama’s Becoming
    • Top seller towards end of 2018, Michelle Obama is a powerhouse but continues to spread kindness.
  17. The Power by Naomi Alderman
    • What would happen if young women had superpowers balancing the status quo between genders? Will there be a shift in the superior gender juxtaposed to what it is now IRL? I’m curious to read
  18. On Writing by Stephen King
  19. Unlimited Memory: How to Use Advanced Learning Strategies to Learn Faster, Remember More and be More Productive

  20. The Day the World Came to Town
    • Come from Away, the Tony award winning musical guided me to understanding what I could not comprehend at age 11 when 9/11 had happened. I was 4 years into arriving on American soil, still picking up the English language when my 6th grade teacher made us all stand staring at the TV showing the planes flying into the Twin Towers. The Day the World Came to Town is a tribute to the kindness in others when the US needed it the most. Newfies (the locals in Newfoundland) took in the stranded for 5 days and showed a kindness I never thought could exist. We all think of how crude this world can be, but here was a pocket of land where people only shared kindness. It’s right there, above where we live and we just need to adopt that same philosophy. Help those in need, spread love and kindness, and give hope where we can. We’re all brothers and sisters to the land Mother Nature gave us, so why do draw lines on a map dividing each other?
  21. Crazy Rich Asians
    • For the light hearted who want nothing but hilarity and couture mixed with of course much needed old school Chinese tradition.

Sometime during age 27 I stopped feeling invincible

In the past year, I entered my “late twenties” and I felt this shift in my mentality.
During my late teenage years, I was still holding onto something that made me feel like superwoman similar to Clark Kent. Invincible to illness, superhuman powers that kept me from dying normal human deaths and so on…

“I can do anything”- Is this the dubbed millennial disease our baby boomer parents unintentionally conditioned my cohorts into believing? We’re raised to believe we had the power to achieve anything we set our mind to. We could enjoy life, eat that gold leafed cake, and realize ultimate work life balance.

And so from that conditioned philosophy of invincibility, I thought death was a foreign intangible far-off land until the past year it hit me like an anvil slamming from overhead.

The shift was slow but insidious. I  noticed not “saving” expensive things anymore so not to exhaust its use. For example, not always bringing out the expensive Louie I had in a cloth bag, not always wearing that Cartier my dad bought as a last gift to his baby girl before she entered true adulthood, and not spending money on things I wanted because those meaningless digits in my bank account needed to be there to remind me of my hard work and where it needs to be invested for a decent future.

Another small and almost forgettable thing I did this morning was use this nail polish I loved but hardly let breath. It has this beautiful iridescent shimmer I vowed to only use on “special occasions.” But what stemmed this fear of having to “save” things so not to use them up? Why was I saving them as though I believed like time, I’ll be around forever?

The sad part is, this past year, I unconsciously made moves as though I wouldn’t. The Louie has seen more action than it did all the previous years combined. The shimmering nail polish that sat in a basket has been brushed over and over on my nail beds.

Somehow in my subconscious, I started to treat myself better. Stopped saving for that rainy day because I’m not invincible and some unfortunate event could cause me to not see this rainy day. I worked hard for the “fun coupons” to purchase these commodities. The best way to treat myself is to use it. I’m not invincible and certainly don’t feel it anymore. The magic dust all feathered away and I need to feel better about living everything to its fullest. That means finishing the bottle of nail polish, bringing Louie to casual events, and wearing my Cartier proud.